Searching and Chasing

I spent years searching and chasing for something meaningful. Along the path of trying new things I developed all sorts of skills and experience that lead to a rewarding career path where I stood out based on my work ethic and aptitude for problem solving. I was on a trajectory for a long career in Operations and Project Management until a door closed.

A door closed

Friday afternoon and I was instructed to close the door behind me. A symbolic closure on a chapter of my life. This closure though led me to ask some deep and important questions like: Who am I without this job? Does what I do for a living define who I am? And then a new opportunity arose and another door opened

Another door opens

Dream job. Work with people and help change lives. Create in collaboration and teach in front of hundreds of people. I had never experienced a greater sense of purpose in a job before that moment, that is until it all fell apart and came crashing to the ground crushing me beneath it.

Fractured

I was in pieces, ripped out of the ground by the roots and hopeless. I experienced a depth of despair on a level I had never known. I had no sense of worth and questioned the one thing I was good at: being a dad. I began to reason that the best thing I could do for my children was to die, that my children would be better off in their life if I was dead. I had nothing to offer I thought. I am an embarrassment and a burden I believed. I had no purpose so why not just quit.

Except….I didn’t quit.

I didn’t quit, I did not give up

I chose a slow path of healing and rehabilitation. I began to deprogram, removing unhelpful beliefs of myself and of the world around me. I began to experience healing, and I began to experience hope again. This however was put to the test when I came face to face with one of my greatest advisories yet: insecurity.

Face to face with the face of insecurity

A top ten low moment of my life. Embarrassment, shame, and regret all packaged together in one night. However, what it exposed in me was the familiar yet elusive face of insecurity that I have never been able to confront before. And I finally got the chance to confront it. And I did not back down, in fact, I leaned in. I continued to reprogram, to heal, and to face who I really was. I began to change, and I could finally look forward and begin dreaming about a whole bundle of new options. I rehabbed myself, continually testing my limits, adding in new challenges and growing stronger as a result. I began to dream big, real big - and that’s when I discovered coaching.

Change through Coaching

The new learning of who I am, what I want, why I want it, and the way towards becoming that person that I was meant to be all along. I discovered a new mindset, a new confidence, and an insatiable hunger to keep growing - to keep confronting, to keep changing and live in a way I am proud of….that my kids would be proud of. My daily mantra is this “keep moving, keep going.”

Keep going

Once I realized that change wasn’t coming “once I get passed that” or “once I complete this” or the one that haunted me the longest “once I get my shit together,” then I was able to experience real change. Real change happened (and is still happening) because I looked inwards, I confronted myself and I took ownership of who I am. The fruit I am experiencing from this real change - in my marriage, in my relationship with my kids, with the people I am establishing relationships with, and with the kids on the ball team I coach – this is the WHY behind the creation of The 30 or 90 Day ReAlignment Plan